Early in my Yi Ren Qigong practice, after an evening class, a fellow practitioner said to me “You are probably really sensitive, that is why energies—good and bad—affect you. You might have been a healer in a past life.”
I am not sure if I was a healer, or if I am ultra-sensitive to life’s energies, but I will say that I have noticed that other peoples’ energies do tend to get stuck in my system at times, or at least it feels that way.
A very popular way to get rid of foreign energies in your system in Yi Ren Qigong is the Small Universe Cultivating Exercise. However, what I have noticed this week is what really helps calm my mind and help draw me back into my body is meditation.
There are many different types of meditation in Yi Ren Qigong and in the Taoist tradition in general. This week I have been switching back and forth from the Peaceful Mind Mediation and Wisdom Gate Meditation and it is helping me get through some major anxiety and depression issues, spurred by some personal issues related to career aspirations and romantic relationships.
On Wednesday morning, I woke up with racing thoughts about all of my problems and delusional issues pertaining to what I think are psychological scars. I decided to immediately begin meditating. I sat with my legs crossed on the floor and held my hands in the Wisdom Gate Meditation Mudra, with my right hand lying over my left at the wisdom gate level and my thumbs pointed outwards.
I then began counting over and over again up to six and breathing through my nose into my abdomen, scanning my body from my crown center to my earth center. The meditation was going fairly well, but I was still getting bombarded by intrusive, bad thoughts.
What helped calm my mind, however, was when I began to focus on the back of my head behind the frontal lobe: the part of the brain called the Parietal Lobe. Once I did that, my mind almost immediately began to quiet down and it became easier to observe what was going on within my body. To me, this was a huge breakthrough.
This week I also saw a scan of a brain belonging to a person who had been diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder or OCD. Those with this disorder have intrusive thoughts that lead to illogical rituals. The scan showed a great deal of activity in the frontal lobe. In fact, the whole frontal lobe was lit up like a bright galaxy of stars. However, the person’s parietal lobe was barely lit up in the scan at all.
The fact that my own obsessive thoughts and worries seemed to be turned down a great deal after my morning meditation leave me to believe that I was balancing the activity in my Frontal Lobe with my Parietal Lobe. This was very encouraging to me and I plan to keep up with my meditation two to three times a day.
It is safe to say that Yi Ren Qigong is probably helping me more than any counseling or psychiatric medication that I have ever taken. This is not to say that Yi Ren Qigong well help everyone the same way, or that it is a substitute for psychiatric medication and/or counseling for those with emotional problems, but it certainly is working for me. For that I am very grateful.